My life seems to be one endless countdown lately. Blood work was uneventful. I brought in my paper work for the RE to start up an account with my chosen sperm bank. Although he gave me a list of banks that they have used in the past, he said it would be okay to choose another. I think he needs to relay that message to the nurse. The first thing she said when I handed her the paper work was "you know this isn't on our approved list" Yes, I do. She told me it would take weeks for her to get to it. What???? I'm going to call the bank tomorrow to check on its status and to get some long profiles for my top 4. Can't wait to see them.
So I think the anticipation of getting to my CD1 messed me up. I spotted for four days (and I had my blood work done on my 4th day) and hit the mother load of all periods on the 5th day. I'm now on day seven and I do not see an end in sight. Can they still do a HSG if I'm bleeding? Will my blood work results be wrong? gulp...
This process has made me a little homesick. My only true friend here is going to be transferred to another office in Indianapolis. I'm excited for her, but sad for me. There's no one here that I feel I can share my news with. It sucks. I know I'm the perky girl that makes friends easily, but its rare to find one you can trust and know you will be friends for a lifetime.
Her moving has made me think about how I still wish I could leave this boring city. So I applied for a two jobs this week: One in Colorado and another in St. Louis. Gotta say the Colorado one sounds great. Although moving right now doesn't sound like a bright idea, I'm ready for a change. Maybe my change doesn't need to be so dramatic. Maybe I just need a vacation....somewhere tropical, or a little village in Italy. HAHA, I'm such a dreamer.
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Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Bummed Out
So I went and saw the counselor yesterday. She gave a short spiel on choosing a donor, performed some blood work and other basic tests on me and then asked if I had any questions. For some reason, doc never mentioned to the counselor (she's a nurse too) that I needed an HSG and neglected to tell me that I couldn't get the HSG done during the month that I am TTC. $hit. I almost cried when she told me that, but then I sucked it up and decided it would be better so I can put more money away.
Now the earliest I can start is the end of May, which means I would have to miss my vacation with my family. Depending on how that cycle goes (crossed fingers) I won't have to miss 4th of July for another attempt.
And now for picking a donor......
Seems like another SMC blogger(Baby thoughts while reality bites) is going through the same dilemna. Who do you pick? How important are each aspect of the medical history? How do you know what Bank is the best? Should I only buy two vials or go and buy 6? It's comforting to see that I am not the only one having troubles with this big decision. I was all excited about "shopping around" for baby daddy juice, but now its a little overwhelming. At least I have another month to truly decide, but my indicisiveness is killing me!
On more positive news, I had to let my HR person at my real job know about my plans so she could help me answer some questions about my insurance benefits and how to go about telling my boss. I got such a great response from her, that it just made my day. When I tell my boss in a couple of months, I hope he has the same reaction.
Now the earliest I can start is the end of May, which means I would have to miss my vacation with my family. Depending on how that cycle goes (crossed fingers) I won't have to miss 4th of July for another attempt.
And now for picking a donor......
Seems like another SMC blogger(Baby thoughts while reality bites) is going through the same dilemna. Who do you pick? How important are each aspect of the medical history? How do you know what Bank is the best? Should I only buy two vials or go and buy 6? It's comforting to see that I am not the only one having troubles with this big decision. I was all excited about "shopping around" for baby daddy juice, but now its a little overwhelming. At least I have another month to truly decide, but my indicisiveness is killing me!
On more positive news, I had to let my HR person at my real job know about my plans so she could help me answer some questions about my insurance benefits and how to go about telling my boss. I got such a great response from her, that it just made my day. When I tell my boss in a couple of months, I hope he has the same reaction.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Sweet beginnings
April 7th will be my first appointment with my RE. I thought I would be nervous, but I've done so much research regarding single mothers by choice and IUI, I feel calm and confident with my decision. Then again, I've been looking into this for the last 6 years, ever since my doctor discovered I had stage 2b cervical cancer. I thankfully had a doctor who thought I was to young to have a full hysterectomy. I know I will still have problems trying to conceive and go full term, but I want to give it a try before I look into adoption.
I guess over the years I thought I would just meet the right guy and I would have my fairly tale fertility ending. Unfortunately, I have recently acquired a taste for insecure a-holes. I'm completely blind to the first signs of the impending doom that lies ahead. Of course, later when I'm analyzing the relationship to death, I see all the reasons it was bound not to work. Sometimes it's not him, sometimes it's me too. I'm always working on the next plan or the next big goal in my life. I'm a dreamer. I'm sure it gets a little tiring to others, but I just don't want to leave this earth without saying I didn't try or asking the "what if's".
I'm not opposed to meeting the right guy; it will always something that I hope will come my way someday. However, I spent a good portion of my late twenties asking myself if I should wait to have kids when I marry, or should I just do it now. In a way, I've been setting my life up to where I could just do it on my own. I finished college, got a great job that pays well, excellent health insurance, average credit score (hoping to improve).
My downfall may be that my job is 6 hours away from family. I've made a few friends here, but its a lot harder to make friends when your out of college. Most of my co-workers who are my age are married with children, while the single co-workers are all in their early 20's and want to go out and party all the time. Needless to say, I don't exactly know if anyone would truly be supportive of my decision nor help me with some of the logistics of being pregnant and single. I've started to look for a support group in my area, but still haven't found one. Who knows, maybe I will start my own...
So about a year ago I got serious with my baby making plan and started to put money away and started doing some research. My family knew I had talked about it briefly when I was 26 but I definitely was not in the right position to pull it off. I got to say it was pretty scary talking to my parents, siblings, aunts, and uncles. Much to my surprised, they are so excited about it! My aunts have been really into it. I've never seen three women get so excited about sperm donation.
TMI
In February, I had my first pre-conception doctors appt with my new regular gyn. She basically confirmed what I knew all along. When they removed the cancer, they took out a lot of my cervix. As she said "wow, they took out a lot of meat". Don't know why, but the way she said it made me laugh first,and instill fear last. She proceeded to tell me that she couldn't believe they did not make me have a hysterectomy.GULP. But as she proceeded to look a round, she confirmed that I had no trace of cancerous or precancerous cells. YIPPEE. Essentially, I have a short cervix. Doc was still pretty cool about it and told me to go for it. I just started to take prenatal vitamins and started to really watch what I eat (which is not easy for me to do).
Beyond the baby talk
I've been a blog lurker for over a year now and thought it may be time to start my own. I appreciate all the information, hope, and laughs I have gained from the various blogs I frequent. I hope this blog will be helpful, not only for me, but others who relate to things going on in my life.
I guess over the years I thought I would just meet the right guy and I would have my fairly tale fertility ending. Unfortunately, I have recently acquired a taste for insecure a-holes. I'm completely blind to the first signs of the impending doom that lies ahead. Of course, later when I'm analyzing the relationship to death, I see all the reasons it was bound not to work. Sometimes it's not him, sometimes it's me too. I'm always working on the next plan or the next big goal in my life. I'm a dreamer. I'm sure it gets a little tiring to others, but I just don't want to leave this earth without saying I didn't try or asking the "what if's".
I'm not opposed to meeting the right guy; it will always something that I hope will come my way someday. However, I spent a good portion of my late twenties asking myself if I should wait to have kids when I marry, or should I just do it now. In a way, I've been setting my life up to where I could just do it on my own. I finished college, got a great job that pays well, excellent health insurance, average credit score (hoping to improve).
My downfall may be that my job is 6 hours away from family. I've made a few friends here, but its a lot harder to make friends when your out of college. Most of my co-workers who are my age are married with children, while the single co-workers are all in their early 20's and want to go out and party all the time. Needless to say, I don't exactly know if anyone would truly be supportive of my decision nor help me with some of the logistics of being pregnant and single. I've started to look for a support group in my area, but still haven't found one. Who knows, maybe I will start my own...
So about a year ago I got serious with my baby making plan and started to put money away and started doing some research. My family knew I had talked about it briefly when I was 26 but I definitely was not in the right position to pull it off. I got to say it was pretty scary talking to my parents, siblings, aunts, and uncles. Much to my surprised, they are so excited about it! My aunts have been really into it. I've never seen three women get so excited about sperm donation.
TMI
In February, I had my first pre-conception doctors appt with my new regular gyn. She basically confirmed what I knew all along. When they removed the cancer, they took out a lot of my cervix. As she said "wow, they took out a lot of meat". Don't know why, but the way she said it made me laugh first,and instill fear last. She proceeded to tell me that she couldn't believe they did not make me have a hysterectomy.GULP. But as she proceeded to look a round, she confirmed that I had no trace of cancerous or precancerous cells. YIPPEE. Essentially, I have a short cervix. Doc was still pretty cool about it and told me to go for it. I just started to take prenatal vitamins and started to really watch what I eat (which is not easy for me to do).
Beyond the baby talk
I've been a blog lurker for over a year now and thought it may be time to start my own. I appreciate all the information, hope, and laughs I have gained from the various blogs I frequent. I hope this blog will be helpful, not only for me, but others who relate to things going on in my life.
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