So I have to say that the conversation with the RE finally sunk in. I originally thought the chance of twins was around 7% and triplets was around .03%. Those are odds I am willing to play. Now that the RE said my percentage is more like 20% and 1-3%, I'm not feeling so confident. I have met plenty of single mothers who have done well with one child (even some whom have gone on to have another a few years later) and have managed. But two or three at the same time?
Needless to say, I have not gotten a lot of sleep the last few nights. On one hand the possibility of twins is exciting. I really want to have two children eventually so it would work out well in that aspect. Dressing them a like, watching the two play together, etc. But then I think of the health concerns that may pop up during a pregnancy with multiples. It scares me. Will I be brave enough to handle having my babies in the NICU? Will I be able to handle if all financially? Can I handle a long time on bedrest? I guess I jumping way ahead of myself, but I just like to be prepared as much as possible.
God, I sound neurotic.
To top it off, I have developed a mad crush on a co-worker. When I'm around him, all I think about having his lips on mine. We've worked together for a year, and honestly, we rarely talked until recently. I have no idea why I am suddenly so attracted to him now when 6 months ago I wouldn't even look in his direction. Maybe all this baby business is bring up all my sexual frustrations. Oh fun:)