Friday, April 23, 2010

uggh...

Let's get this show on the road already!! I'm still less than a week away from CD1 but I wish it was yesterday. I'm so impatient, I just want to know what days I need to ask for some time off. How do people balance fertility treatments with work? I have meetings non-stop this next week and am trying to figure how I can sneak away for an hour or so to do blood work.

I nearly had a panic attack yesterday, when I realized I'm still a year away from paying off my car. Can I afford a baby and a car payment? I know it sounds funny that I just started freaking out about this now, but I guess I have nothing better to do than stress out. Then I remind myself that my cousin, 19, just had a baby and gets by just fine without a HS diploma and a job at walmart. Granted she has a boyfriend that helps, but still, I'm in a better financial situation then both of them combined and they still manage to make it work. Kudos to them.

During all my irrational thinking yesterday, I thought about waiting until august to start trying since I have two mini-vacations planned in the next few months and my IUI would potentially fall on those days. But then again, I just don't want to wait any longer. I've read plenty of SMC blogs that said they wished they didn't keep putting it off, that there would always be something that would make them think they couldn't do it now. I don't want to follow in those foot steps. I already told the family I wouldn't make it up for vacation 1. I hate to tell them I will miss vacation 2 plus I think I am going to need it as a mental health break:)

On to a different topic, I love to keep my patio door open so my dog can hangout on the patio when he wants. So, the other day I opened the patio door and proceeded to hangout on the couch while watching TV. All of a sudden, a bird flew in, circling my living room and went right out the door again. I barely had a moment to yell, it just happened so quickly. Needless to say, the screen will now be used for the rest of the summer. I hope the bird enjoyed the tour.

3 comments:

Me Plus One said...

Oh, the waiting...it never ends!!

I think the bird is a good omen!!

Hera said...

I came home from a business trip to find a bird in my house. No clue (still how it got in). I had to "capture" it to get it out....
Anyway, the waiting...everything seems to be about waiting now. It's amazing how long time passes when you're waiting!

The Turning Of Paige said...

Just found you and you can be assured what you're feeling every one of us has felt at one time or another. I feel you, sis.