Tuesday, July 26, 2011

4th Ultrasound

Once again, things look great. I think my baby is a prankster! The nurse said the baby was moving around like crazy but everytime she pushed the screen towards me so I could see, the baby would stop moving. It happened 3 times! The nurse would take the wand and shove it into me further to get the baby to move (kind of like jabbing at a caged animal, yet not fun for me or the animal) and there was no movement. Finally she pushed around on my belly and the baby started to move around, kicking his/her feet up. So cute. Heartbeat is 178. My sister said she is convinced once again that it is a girl so she is sending me all the girl clothes she bought when she was pregnant with her last son. Yeah free clothes!

I got the ditzy nurse again. She's super nice but I don't know if I should believe anything she says. This time she told me I'm only measuring at 8 wks although I watched her measure the baby and she measured rump to the side of the baby's head. Aren't they suppose to measure crown to rump? She also couldn't figure out how far along I am based on my LMP. Oh well, if she was a mean nurse I would be pissed but she's so friendly I try to just laugh it off.

Ultrasound 5 is scheduled for Thursday August 4th and then a week later I will get the dreaded cerclage. Blahhhh.

Ooh and I noticed my widget is not looking as creepy as it was a few weeks ago. I think I'm going to keep it around.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Taco Bell Frutistas (otherwise known as heaven in a cup)

I can't stop thinking about them. For the last week, I've had horrible cravings and dream about the mango strawberry frutistas. They're fantastic! I'm getting worried that the T-bell drive thru lady is going to know my name by the end of this pregnancy :)

I have another ultrasound tomorrow. I'm grateful that I have so many opportunities to see the baby but the frequency of dr's appointments seems to be pissing some people off around here. I stay late and make up the time, so I really don't see what the problem is. A co-worker who I confide in on a regular basis told me not to quit my job because every job has problems and whatever I move to might be worse than the current situation. Is it possible to be at a job that you love, a place where people treat each other as human beings and not just a number of productivity?

Thursday, July 21, 2011

3rd Ultrasound

Yesterday's ultrasound looked great (7w2d). Baby is growing right on schedule. It's funny how the sound of the baby's heartbeat stops any conversation going on in the room. What an amazing, reassuring sound. The doctor and I discussed the cerclage again and it looks like it will be scheduled on August 10th. I have to say that the thought of going under general anesthesia makes me a little nervous but I know this cerclage needs to be done so I'm going to keep my chin up and go for it.

We also discussed releasing me to my OB after the procedure. I can't wait to be released. I love my RE's office and will miss them dearly however moving on to a regular OB is such a great milestone. I keep thinking that once I get to the OB, I will only have seven months to go (Only, haha).

Work hasn't really changed. I got pulled into our accountants office a few days ago to ask why I'm asking around for work when we just landed this huge project. Good question because we have plenty of work that needs to be done on it. When I told her I was told I could only bill 15 hours per week to the project and that I needed to find other billable work or bill my additional time to admin, she nearly fell out of her chair. She told me to ignore my boss's instructions and bill all time I have spent on the project, even if it's over 15 hours. It puts me in a odd position. I'm going against direct orders from my boss and I think that just makes me look bad. I wish they could act like adults around here and just talked to each other about it instead of using me as a pawn. I guess that's just the MO of the company. Interestingly, the accountant told me that there has been some serious dicussion with upper management about my childish manager and how he should not be in his position. I've heard this conversation more than once yet they haven't done a damn thing about it. Are there days where he seems like he is doing better. Yes. Has he started to act like a manager. No. How many years of will it take for them to see the big picture? I hoping I wont have to be around that long to find out the answer to that question.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

34th Birthday

It's my birthday. I have to admit that amoungst all of the scandal and chaos that has been going on at work I completely forgot about it. I'm grateful for the number of friends and family members who have contacted me today because their enthusiasm is exactly what I needed. Life is too short to be this stressed out and I am desperately in need for an attitude pick-me-upper. I should be focusing on enjoying this pregnancy, but instead it has taken a backseat to project mis-management and its subsequent fallout. I'm going home to sit in the shower for an hour (I don't care about conservation today) and then I'm going to bed to dream about a better tomorrow. That's my b-day wish. A better tomorrow. And a pay raise. And a back massage from someone who has a hot body and a sexy accent.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Having One of Those Days

Even though I am so exhausted, I just can't sleep. I woke up several times in the middle of the night. Each time, I was in some weird position: laying width ways, my head where my feet should be, spooning my dog, no pillows, too many pillows, blanket, no blanket. It was nuts. Finally at 4am I gave up and got out of bed. I sat and watched some shows that I DVR'd for an hour or so and then finally just went to work at 6am, two hours before I was suppose to be there.

I'm sure alot of this sleeplessness is coming from, what feels like, a baby growth spurt. I woke up starving and I feel some tremendous stretching. I was also having some incredibly messed up dreams again. I dreamt that I quit my job and told my d-bag of manager to go and F -himself (I said the real thing in my dream). The dream had me so upset there really was no way I was going back to bed.

That dream relates directly to all the childish crap he's been pulling for the last 3 weeks. It's clearly nothing new, the guy is never going to change and I am 100% our boss wont do a damn thing about it. I'm sure I've blogged about it but quite a few weeks ago there was a department meeting where I was assigned several tasks while manager did not get anything (although he was busy with other projects). He got upset and started to complain that I got all the work and he didn't get anything (Pout, Pout,Pout). To try to reduce the drama, I talked to the boss and told him about the situation and turned a few of the tasks over the manager. Bad idea. Now anytime I'm assigned something he pouts until he gets his way, making the boss take the task away from me and handing it to him. It got so bad yesterday, that I had a list half page long of things to do. By mid-day I had NOTHING and was told for the next few months I will have less than 15 hours of billable work each week, while jack-ass has so much on his plate that he can't finish any of it and people keep stoping at his desk wondering where this and that is. Does that make any sense?

I am now forced to go to other departments to ask for more work. One of my colleagues has seen the managers childish behavior and told me it is definitely time to get my resume out. Unfortunately, I really need to wait until after the baby is born before I do any moving. This is such a damn mess and I need to keep my pregnancy hormones out of it but its hard when I get this stressed out about it all. I just don't know why this d-bag is still allowed to act this way.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

2nd Ultrasound

I saw and heard Cricket's heartbeat yesterday!

It was so amazing to see that little flicker of cricket's heart. The nurse told me I would most likely not hear the heartbeat for another week but as soon as she turned on the speakers, you could hear it loud and clear. 117bpm. It's rather ironic that the first bpm number was the same as my first beta. Unfortunately the nurse was really off schedule (over 30 minutes) and so she only let me see the screen for a few seconds, but those few seconds were amazing.

Baby is measuring at 6w2d which would be exactly correct if going by the date of my last IUI. The funny thing is, the nurse seemed more confused about my due date than I am. She also couldn't figure out how to save my ultrasound photos on to my cd, so I guess I should say that I wasn't really surprised.

I go in for my next ultrasound Wednesday the 20th. Till then, I have been addicted to shopping for a crib, dresser and stroller. It's really the last few remaining "large" purchase I need to make. I know I have plenty of time but it's just so much fun!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

5w2d redo/1st Ultrasound

Wow, I'm really pregnant. I think it still hasn't fully hit me yet. I felt like the nurses were talking about someone else the whole appointment. Cricket is measuring a smidge larger than it should at this point and looks really good. I saw the gestational sac, yolk sac and fetal pole this morning.

Cricket's first pic!

According to the doctor, they will go by my LMP, not the date of my last IUI, until I go on to the OB/GYN where they might potentially change the date. This might also depend on how I am measuring at the next few ultrasounds. Until then, I'm back to 5w2d and due March 5th (If my calculation is correct).

We rediscussed putting in a cerclage with the doctor today. It looks like I will go in the first week of August for surgery. It sounds like they will put me under general and then the procedure will take just a few minutes. I will have to take a few days off following the procedure but then I can resume working at both jobs.

Next ultrasound is Monday the 11th. We should be able to see a heartbeat at that appointment.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011


My parents where so excited when they opened their presents! I wish I had a camera handy so you could see their shocked faces. It was a lot of fun. Now I just need them to keep the news underwraps until September when I can come up to WI to tell the rest of the family.

It's been an odd weekend. All the symptoms that I had last week seemed to have faded away, which has me extremely nervous. I had a slight headache last night, my tatas are a little sore and I have been having occasional episodes of acid reflux every couple of days but that's all. I know I have my first ultrasound tomorrow and hopefully that will resolve some of these fears of losing this baby. There's a good chance that I wont see/hear a heartbeat tomorrow so it might not be as reassuring as I hope it will be. Oh well, I will know more tomorrow.

My family was making bets on how many babies there are. I am convinced there is one. My brother and sister believe there is two. My mom is staying switzerland while my Dad thinks that there is one. I wonder who is right?

Friday, July 1, 2011

Nervous Nervous Nervous

I am 1 hour and 20 minutes away from sharing my news with my parents and I am so excited and terrified all at the same time. They know I've been trying to get pregnant but my Mom stopped asking me questions after the first cycle failed. It kind of hurt my feelings but I know she was probably afraid it would put unneccessary pressure on me. My sister told me this week that she gave up on me ever getting pregnant. Man is she in for a surprise. I just hope they are as excited as I am!