Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Man Juice has been ordered!

I placed the order on Friday. In ~2weeks I start the injectables.

I want to say I'm super psyched about the insem coming up but problems at work have taken the joy away from the occasion. My married supervisor and the intern have been in a relationship (of some sort) for a few years and it continuously affects my work. They are both young and have a lot to learn. I have tried to take the high road in the situation, being friendly, invite them out, etc., but the intern turns me into the butt of their jokes and continuously criticizes my ability to do my job. The supervisor eggs the intern on and they both act inappropriately in and outside of the workplace. Although I know I work really hard and have proven to upper management that I am worth keeping, my supervisor controls the assignments I receive. Projects are continuously passed to the intern because it is a "learning experience". The intern regularly refuses work that the intern deems to be below the interns station, so the supervisor has me do it. I don't mind because it needs to get done, but there is no way I would ever let an intern dictate what a intern will or wont do. I recently had a project that the intern was suppose to do work on. The intern chose to only do half and made the rest appear as if the intern had finished it. The client noticed before I did, making it a very embarrasing situation. Thank god the client loves our company and the client took it in stride. Upon addressing the situation with the supervisor, the supervisor made numerous excuses for the interns behavior, but never punished the intern. In fact, the intern got a really important project shortly afterwards. WTF?

There is two years worth of gory details which I will spare you from. I don't mind if someone doesn't like me, but I draw the line when someone sabatoges projects and prevents me from getting ahead because of hate. Upper management have been well aware of the situation but I think they are afraid to deal with it because it has to do with an affair. I keep my head held high but I am really getting worn down on the situation. I'm tired of crying about it and am afraid of how the stress of the situation will affect my ability to become pregnant.

Friday, May 7, 2010


So in the beginning of the procedure, when they put the catheter through the cervix, it just wasn't that bad. BUT when they started to put the dye through...OMG. I started to cry, it hurt so badly. The doctor said my scarring was making it difficult to get the dye through. 5 hours later, I am still having cramps. I'm just glad it's over with. Besides the pain, my results showed no abnormalities so I can officially start trying.. YIPPEE.

I gave my family my top three donor picks. They have named them: Mr. Dimples, Tall guy, and Freckles. Hilarious. Mr. Dimples is in the lead. It cracks me up to hear what characteristics are the most important to them. It seems the amount of body hair he has is a huge factor to them. I couldn't stop laughing because they were on the topic for about 30 minutes before we could move on. Beware of the Hair!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

2 days to go

My life seems to be one endless countdown lately. Blood work was uneventful. I brought in my paper work for the RE to start up an account with my chosen sperm bank. Although he gave me a list of banks that they have used in the past, he said it would be okay to choose another. I think he needs to relay that message to the nurse. The first thing she said when I handed her the paper work was "you know this isn't on our approved list" Yes, I do. She told me it would take weeks for her to get to it. What???? I'm going to call the bank tomorrow to check on its status and to get some long profiles for my top 4. Can't wait to see them.

So I think the anticipation of getting to my CD1 messed me up. I spotted for four days (and I had my blood work done on my 4th day) and hit the mother load of all periods on the 5th day. I'm now on day seven and I do not see an end in sight. Can they still do a HSG if I'm bleeding? Will my blood work results be wrong? gulp...

This process has made me a little homesick. My only true friend here is going to be transferred to another office in Indianapolis. I'm excited for her, but sad for me. There's no one here that I feel I can share my news with. It sucks. I know I'm the perky girl that makes friends easily, but its rare to find one you can trust and know you will be friends for a lifetime.

Her moving has made me think about how I still wish I could leave this boring city. So I applied for a two jobs this week: One in Colorado and another in St. Louis. Gotta say the Colorado one sounds great. Although moving right now doesn't sound like a bright idea, I'm ready for a change. Maybe my change doesn't need to be so dramatic. Maybe I just need a vacation....somewhere tropical, or a little village in Italy. HAHA, I'm such a dreamer.