What's wrong with me?

I started my period yesterday. I was disappointed but I also semi-expected it to happen. The last week has been hell! I was super stressed about getting this grant application finished by its deadline (got it submitted with 6 hours to spare) and then I was suppose to move yesterday but that went horribly wrong.

I had written an anonymous comment on apartmentrating.com regarding how incompetent the staff was and how rude the leasing agent was nearly 8months ago. The apartment complex has still not fixed the gaping hole in my ceiling caused by the water leak I had over 4th of July weekend. I really didn't complain about it because I knew I would be moving into a bigger apartment soon but I was really uncertain if I wanted to stay in the complex with all the maintenance issues I have had with the apartment. So when I broke away from work to sign my lease, the leasing agent was her typical bitchy-self, complaining about her co-workers and how stress she was. I tried to be sympathetic, told her I could come back later in the day if it was better for her. I definitely did not have the energy to hear all the negativity when I'm feeling enough of it in my own life. After I wrote out the check, and began reviewing the lease, she chose that moment to let me know she is not a rude person and she thinks that I lied about my issue with my apartment and that I shouldn't post lies on websites....WHAT????? I said to her "This is kind of an awkward situation, but I stand behind my statement I made on the website. You don't find confronting me like this is rude and unprofessional?" She told me she didn't feel like she was being rude, just making a point and that she was not incompetent. Mind you she smiled like a Cheshire cat through out all of this. So then I said, "may I remind you I have had a gaping hole in my ceiling for 2 months?" I then said I felt really uncomfortable about signing a lease for another 1yr and will simply move out of the complex at the end of October. The most amusing part was her begging me to reconsider because they had already re-rented my place and they wanted to be in the apartment in the next few days. Why would you be so rude to a customer, and then expect them to do whatever you say? HELLO CRAZY? The good thing is there fixing the hole today. Yippee. I'm tired of having insulation fall on my while I'm taking a shower.

I started spotting later on that evening and it was like one gigantic sign. Maybe this all happened for a reason. I've made a list of all the things I want to accomplish in the next 3 months:

1. I want to call the RE and talk about going directly to IVF instead of doing a third IUI. I am also hoping they can try to make sure there is not some other underlying factors on why I'm not getting pregnant.

2. Lose the 20 lbs I've gain the last three months from fertility treatments.

3. Pay off three more big bills

4. Plan a vacation (god knows I need to get my mind back into a better place)

5. MOVE OUT OF THIS DAMN APARTMENT!

Can I tell you how awesome one of my friend T is? He's awesome, he calls and texts me on a regular basis to see how things are going and has been incredibly supportive of the whole situation. I know he sometimes follow this site, so I just want to say thank you. I know I don't have a chance to say it enough, but it really means a lot to me.