I'm so flippin' confused right now, I don't know which way is up. While I was at work last night, AF completely stopped. I'm just spotting again this morning so I decided to take another hpt. BFN.
When I called RE's office, the nurse thought it was way to early for me to be getting my AF. She thought I still had a good chance of being pregnant from this cycle and that this might just be my body trying to have a period. So again, I have some hope.
I think the messed up part is, I can't seem to stop crying. It started yesterday afternoon around 2 and has continued on to today. My face is swollen, red and blotchy from the constant cascade of tears. Everything is setting me off, I'm just completely overwhelmed. I wish I could take a mental health day but I have a deadline to meet and I am very behind.
I just feel like a complete failure if this turns into a BFN.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Is there still hope? (Update)
After I posted yesterday, I went home and went to bed to take a nap. When I woke up, I realized the spotting had completely stopped. This morning, same status, nothing there. So I decided to take a hpt. BFN. Now 3 hours later I'm back to spotting again. This is just cruel and its really messing with my head. I'm only 12dpIUI. Is there still hope?
Update++++
No hope. The bitch flow has begun.
Update++++
No hope. The bitch flow has begun.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Cycle Three is a Failure
Thank you for all the previous comments ladies but unfortunately it looks like this cycle is a dud. I started spotting this morning and the amount of cramping and my ranging headache definitely indicates the beginning of the end. To say I'm disappointed is an understatement. I just wonder if this is ever going to happen for me.
I think I need to start have an honest discussion with myself regarding how far I'm willing to go to finally achieve motherhood. If I choose to try again, my next cycle might not occur until August due to work committments. I think I'm going to give my RE a call and see if we can set up a WTF appointment. I think I'm also going to splurge and get a bottle of arbor mist.
I think I need to start have an honest discussion with myself regarding how far I'm willing to go to finally achieve motherhood. If I choose to try again, my next cycle might not occur until August due to work committments. I think I'm going to give my RE a call and see if we can set up a WTF appointment. I think I'm also going to splurge and get a bottle of arbor mist.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
The 2ww Strikes again (9dpIUI)
I had a rather scary incident last night and am hoping someone can shed some light on the matter.
Right before I headed to the restaurant for work last night, I was hit with some of the worst uterine cramping I've ever experienced. The pain was so intense it left me curled up into a little ball. After a few minutes had passed with no relief, I tried to go to the bathroom to see if that would make me feel better but it definitely didn't work. I then made my way into a hot shower but that just seemed to make it worse. I finally got into my bed and cried until the pain subsided some thirty plus minutes later. Since then I've just had this off and on burning sensation in my abdomen. I am either about to get the mother of all periods, I've got some insane infection brewing, the freakin' ovidrel is just messing with me, or I'm about to get my first BFP. Damn rollercoaster ride!
Right before I headed to the restaurant for work last night, I was hit with some of the worst uterine cramping I've ever experienced. The pain was so intense it left me curled up into a little ball. After a few minutes had passed with no relief, I tried to go to the bathroom to see if that would make me feel better but it definitely didn't work. I then made my way into a hot shower but that just seemed to make it worse. I finally got into my bed and cried until the pain subsided some thirty plus minutes later. Since then I've just had this off and on burning sensation in my abdomen. I am either about to get the mother of all periods, I've got some insane infection brewing, the freakin' ovidrel is just messing with me, or I'm about to get my first BFP. Damn rollercoaster ride!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
8dpIUI
Bloated and back into the fat pants. Excellent.
I had some uterine cramping which I am really hoping that the cramping stems from an embryo borrowing in. I've stupidly gone on to the Internet to find stories of people getting a positive hpt at this point which has gotten me thinking about testing. Thankfully there's a part of my brain that is screaming NO, Don't Do It!! I know the trigger shot is in my system until at least the 30th and my period should be here on the 29th so I am making a very public promise to myself that I WILL NOT TEST EARLY. Yeah let's see how that one goes, haha.
Funny little thing I saw driving to work yesterday. I was driving along side this kind of cute guy for awhile and kept checking him out. When we pulled up to the stop light, I decided to take one last look over before I was about to make my turn. This guy had his finger so jammed up his nose I seriously wondered if he was scrathing his brain. So much for cute. Hope he found what he was looking for.
I had some uterine cramping which I am really hoping that the cramping stems from an embryo borrowing in. I've stupidly gone on to the Internet to find stories of people getting a positive hpt at this point which has gotten me thinking about testing. Thankfully there's a part of my brain that is screaming NO, Don't Do It!! I know the trigger shot is in my system until at least the 30th and my period should be here on the 29th so I am making a very public promise to myself that I WILL NOT TEST EARLY. Yeah let's see how that one goes, haha.
Funny little thing I saw driving to work yesterday. I was driving along side this kind of cute guy for awhile and kept checking him out. When we pulled up to the stop light, I decided to take one last look over before I was about to make my turn. This guy had his finger so jammed up his nose I seriously wondered if he was scrathing his brain. So much for cute. Hope he found what he was looking for.
Friday, March 25, 2011
7dpIUI
After a night of hot compresses, I'm just back to being sore and achy. I can handle sore and achy.
So I noticed that there are a quite a few fellow bloggers that are in the middle of their 2ww. One of the best things about blogging is you can really relate to people who are experiencing the same thoughts and physical changes as you are. After reading their blogs, it just makes me feel so relieved that what I am experiencing, whether it be little twinges or crampiness, is completely normal. I think it really has helped me in ways that I could never explain. In other words, thank you.
So I noticed that there are a quite a few fellow bloggers that are in the middle of their 2ww. One of the best things about blogging is you can really relate to people who are experiencing the same thoughts and physical changes as you are. After reading their blogs, it just makes me feel so relieved that what I am experiencing, whether it be little twinges or crampiness, is completely normal. I think it really has helped me in ways that I could never explain. In other words, thank you.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
6dpIUI (CD23) and update
So I went to the RE's office for an ultrasound and progesterone check. Everything went fine in doctor's office and they said they would call me to let me know if I need to take my ovidrel booster and to schedule the pregnancy test. But then there was no phone call. I know I should have just called at 4:30 instead of waiting for them but I know I occasionally get my results late in the day and sometimes late means 6pm. I ended up tossing and turning all night, worried that I just ruined my whole cycle.
I called this morning and the nurse really put my mind at ease. She said my progesterone was 14 and to go ahead with the booster. Taking the booster just supports the lining and at this point it doesn't really affect the possibility of a pregnancy. My lining was pretty good, 13.19mm. Ahhh, I can relax now.
I'm scheduling my pregnancy test for the April 4th (CD35). Which seems like an eternity. Let's hope I make it that far!
The nurse did say something rather interesting. If this cycle doesn't work, they are going to investigate the possiblity that I'm not releasing eggs.?. I thought that was what the trigger shot was for. She also mentioned that they would increase my doses of Gonal-F.
It's too early to start talking about the next cycle. I'm stll in the game, right?
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Update: I took the booster shot at my lunch break. I noticed this morning my boobs were a little bit fuller than usual but 5 hours after the booster shot, my breasts are spilling over the top of my bra (sorry tmi) and I feel like someone is squeezing and twisting them!! OMG, I can not believe how painful this is, I want to cry. Does anyone know what I can do to ease the pain? I've already tried tylenol but it is either not working or hasn't started to work.
I called this morning and the nurse really put my mind at ease. She said my progesterone was 14 and to go ahead with the booster. Taking the booster just supports the lining and at this point it doesn't really affect the possibility of a pregnancy. My lining was pretty good, 13.19mm. Ahhh, I can relax now.
I'm scheduling my pregnancy test for the April 4th (CD35). Which seems like an eternity. Let's hope I make it that far!
The nurse did say something rather interesting. If this cycle doesn't work, they are going to investigate the possiblity that I'm not releasing eggs.?. I thought that was what the trigger shot was for. She also mentioned that they would increase my doses of Gonal-F.
It's too early to start talking about the next cycle. I'm stll in the game, right?
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Update: I took the booster shot at my lunch break. I noticed this morning my boobs were a little bit fuller than usual but 5 hours after the booster shot, my breasts are spilling over the top of my bra (sorry tmi) and I feel like someone is squeezing and twisting them!! OMG, I can not believe how painful this is, I want to cry. Does anyone know what I can do to ease the pain? I've already tried tylenol but it is either not working or hasn't started to work.
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