I had my 5th ultrasound on Wednesday. Cricket was dancing all around with his/her hands up in the air,feet straight out and booty wiggling. It was so cute! Heartrate was 174.
For the most part, my pregnancy symptoms have been nil, but from thursday to saturday, I had some pretty horrible bouts of nausea. I think I did a good job hiding it while I was at work but by friday afternoon it had gotten so bad that I gave up mid-day and went home. I've been 100% better today so I am hoping the last few days were just a fluke.
I broke down and started wearing maternity clothes this last week. Using a bella band works with some of my non-maternity clothes, but I'm always worried that my pants will somehow fall off. The maternity clothes are kind of big on me but they are so damn comfortable! I'm plus size and it has been incredible difficult to find cute/dressy maternity clothes. I think if I ever run into some serious cash, I'm going to start my own plus-size maternity line.
The date of my cerclage is approaching rapidly. This has been the first pregnancy related event that has made me more aware of my smc status. The pre-op nurse asked me if my significant other would be taking care of me the day of the procedure. I kept it simple and told her a friend would be helping me instead. But I was kind of lying to the nurse.
I asked a co-worker to drive me to and from the hospital. Unfortunately, I feel this ridiculous need to prove my independence so I told her, against the doctor's instructions, that I didn't need her to stay with me after she brought me home. I'm kind of scared about the whole day and I'm now regretting saying that. I know it should be ok for me to ask for help, but I can't seem to get away from needing to prove that I can do this all on my own. It's how I've always been (I don't want to be a burden), but going the SMC route, I feel like I just have more to prove. Has anyone else felt this way?