I refused to google the results of my ultrasound yesterday but broke down around 4am when I couldn't sleep. Big mistake. I'm just more confused and anxious. One site tells me the risk of Down's and Edward's syndrome go up with the three markers. Another site tells me that this all means essentially nothing while another, which was someone's blog, stated that her baby demonstrated no markers yet her baby has down's. DAMN YOU GOOGLE!!!
I'm trying to keep a positive spirit but by the time I got out of work, I decided to take the dog for a walk and then go directly to bed so I could avoid any family phone calls. After my intense google research, I decided to tell my parents what was going on. My Mom made me feel a little better but we both fully understand the magnitude of living with a person who has a mental disability. I think if I didn't know what it was like I might not freak out as much as I am, but I know how difficult it was for my grandparents to care for my Aunt Maggie. For all I know these markers don't mean a damn thing and are a complete fluke but if there not, I want to be as prepared as possible. My Mom and I both agreed that if the specialists suggests an amnio, I'm going for it. There is no way I could go through with the rest of this pregnancy without knowing.
Now I'm just waiting on the phone call from the specialist. I wish they would hurry up with this appointment so I can calm my mind down.
5 comments:
Google is a biotch. I try to never go to it for serious advice. It will scare the crud out of you even after giving you bits of positive info.
I can't understand the range of emotions you're going through but I am sorry you have to go through it. I'm thinking of you and your little one and praying all is well.
PS - I've called your babe Wyatt at least twice in my head. No idea why that is especially when that wasn't a name I was going for.
They should schedule your amnio pretty quickly, I would think. I'm sorry you have to go through all of this.
I can only imagine how much your mind must be spinning. I'm so sorry you have to go thru this...
P.S. I rarely disagree with Gille but I don't know about the name Wyatt ;)
There are so many false positives with these tests - I'm really hoping that's the case for you! I can only imagine how stressed and anxious you must be. I hope you can get some answers soon!
Oh, dear. It's perfectly normal to be freaked out. Stay away from Dr. Google.
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